This is my take on dating a guy who you can’t get enough of.
It is too early in the relationship to know anything but hope and to feel
anything but amazing. It’s incredible and rare, and here is my best:
It’s that once in a while (not once in a lifetime but
certainly more rare than holidays) feeling where you are enchanted by a smile,
a touch, and a kiss. You spend your whole day not caring one bit about anything
bad in your life and you feel like, finally, everything is going to be all
right. You know nothing is perfect, but you also know that the imperfections
are well worth wading through the tough waters. It’s that feeling when all you
do is smile and all you want to do is tell everyone that finally, who you have
been waiting for, made his way to your doorstep. You are thrilled by how handsome
he is and you wish you had pictures to show everyone because he is such a babe.
You can’t stop smiling. You are thankful for your ex’s because they helped you
appreciate the man in front of you by giving you a firm foundation of what is
not acceptable and what is required.
He texts you right away and he follows through with the plan
he makes. He even throws you for a loop by calling your phone (wow). You
shouldn’t be so amazed by how great he is, but you are because you realize how
rare it is to find such a gem. He is so sweet, and everything about him seems
perfect. You know he checks the immediate qualifications of a serious
boyfriend. It’s amazing. Arrow through the heart. Cupid got me good. Mush.
It’s that first comfortable Friday night when you don’t
dress up or go anywhere and you have somebody who wants to be beside you. You
watch TV and you laugh about your day. You talk about “what-if” in the universe
and you discuss your childhood and what you think is right in the world. You
have always enjoyed being alone but it is so nice to have a special someone.
You hope to God that it works out, that you don’t move to
fast, or that you don’t put out vibes to scare him away. You hope he is genuine
and that the guy you met is the guy he is. You are afraid this feeling will
fade fast, or worse, it will be ripped away in a blindsided robbery. You hope
you can open your whole heart and be yourself and that for once, it will work
out. You came around to believing in love and you finally met someone to give
it a whirl with.
This is what infatuation and lust feels like. This is what
it feels like to be a human; the most rare emotion to encounter. The feeling
that makes you do irrational things and be happy in a way that you can barely
describe. When you are not around, you think of when you are…and you begin to
feel woozy, but in the good way.
What a feeling.
