Phantacie Phriday: A Fresh Start

I am starting over in a new city. I am going into a completely different career path that I'm not really sure what it is yet. I do not know anyone, I do not have a job, and I do not have a place to live. I am starting completely over. It scares me to death, but at the same time I have always wanted this and now is a better time than any. Some people tell me I am crazy or brave. Some people don't say it, but I can tell that they think I am making a mistake. Others have a slight hint of envy. But, out of everyone that I have told, the people that are most happy for me and that understand it the most, have done something similar in their lives.

The hardest person to convince is my mom. She still thinks I should live in her house forever. I know that she comes from a place of love, so, as hard as it is to see her sad, I love her for loving me. I don't feel like I am leaving her, I feel like I am running toward my dreams. If I ever have children, I hope they have the opportunity to explore like I have.

I really am lucky to live in the United States. The politics, taxes, and communities are on the side of entrepreneurs, which I want to be. I know that if I dream it, I can achieve it. However, I also know it is not easy. I know that I have to make sacrifices. Inevitably, I am going to make my mom cry and my peers question my sanity. I am going to appear crazy and bold. I have to give up my comfortable lifestyle for a questionable income for a while. I am going to have to start over--the only thing I have is the skills that I have acquired from my past experiences plus the drive of wanting an incredible life.

I used to joke about how being at work was another day of "living the dream" and now I am not joking. Everyday will be living my dream and working towards what I want. Time is about to fly faster than it ever has. As I began this piece of writing telling you all that I do not have much, the one thing that I do have is faith in myself. I woke up knowing that I was not meant to live a mediocre life.  I always have had a good life. I don't want a good life, I want a great life. I want greatness. I hope we all choose a life of greatness. It is the hope of greatness that I am holding onto.

I am venturing out into the unknown. For some reason I am gravitating there. I know people here and I have a shot at a decent career. However, I already know what that is like. It is not bad, but at the same time it isn't great. I want to at least try. I HAVE TO TRY!